Life had been too protected and too lavish to value. It sounds silly now that I was so irrelevant before. So full of my own self to understand that everything good that I had, was that I deserved. And how would I know when Allah SWT has himself blessed me with everything people only dream off.
But Alhumdulillah for rejection!
Alhumdulillah a million times for failure.
The loss has made me a human I now respect.
It’s made me value my own life.
Allah SWT gives, and that’s a test!
He takes, and that’s a test!
Do we understand it?
No. A straight no.
Because till you and I don’t ask for Hidayat
we aren’t getting any of it.
We get what we ask, always.
And that’s when we read and hear from our elders and scholars to say everything that’s right and has good in it.
But, do we understand that?
No. A straight no.
Because we are too young and perhaps naive.
Our understanding is short and we over think things that have no worth.
So how do we understand what’s good for us?
It may surprise you, but for things that I don’t understand. I ask Allah SWT to test them for me. The test may be in many ways, but the best tests are those that come from rejection.
I would first be very sad and heartbroken to any rejection that came my way for obvious human reasons. Not that I’m a saint now.
But Alhumdulillah I’ve trained my mind to keep my peace and wait for the rejection to set in. To basically sleep over it to understand, why has it come to me.
Is there room for improvement? Is there a way Allah SWT is teaching me something I’m not understanding?
And before being embarrassed in front of others I rather stand rejection from Allah!
Because He knows, exactly what I need.
He knows, everything that is going to bring me happiness and peace.
And our aim shouldn’t only be to live in the moment. Of course we should thank Allah for now. But life isn’t only about now. It’s about now and the afterlife. It’s about finding peace every day and every where.
To find it in lessons and rejections. Failure sometimes marks more importance than success.
I’m sure you think, Oh only scholars or people who don’t understand my problems talk like this.
But my dear one’s,
I won’t say my problem was bigger than yours.
But for me, it was the hardest I could face.
Just like you know, your problems are so big enough for you. Allah SWT only gives you what you can fight and stand by. He knows you,
He created you. And why don’t we understand that yet?
We have to give ourselves a chance to let Him explain to us what’s right for us.
And maybe, that’s coming in from a rejection.
That’s coming in from a failure.
My dear one, the bigger the failure, the bigger the success. The bigger rejection the better future.
May you find happiness and peace everywhere you go.
Always and forever in my dua’s.